I Love You

My Beloved,

I love you! Just writing that puts a smile on my face. It's like when I see you, you don't even have to speak. All you have to do is smile, and it can make my day.

I love you because of your sweetness, your kindness, your tenderness, and your thoughtfulness.

I love you because you are my dear friend and loving companion.
You smile at my silly jokes and enjoy my youthful spirit. I love how we have so many inside jokes such as "Ima cut you", the adventures of Kailan, and socks.



I love you because I have a longing to be close to you and you long to be close to me. I love snuggling with you in front of a TV as we watch scary movies. I love when you hide under your blanket and bury your head in my arms during the scary scenes. I love to be near you. I love holding your hand on a walk during the day, holding your hands while I drive, and holding your hands across the table at a restaurant at night.

I love you because you listen to me as I share the small triumphs or struggles of the day. I love how both our bodies have so many problems due to the sports we do. I will talk about how hard football practice was and you will tell me how hard your dance teacher pushed you today.



I love you because in moments of friction between us, you hear me out. Even when you don't agree with me, you listen with a longing to understand me. I love how you always get really angry at me when I tease you or make fun of you.

I love you because you respect me. You honor the person that I am, rather than try to make me into someone I am not. You suffer my imperfections and my shortcomings largely without complaint.

I love you because you appreciate me. You enjoy my attentiveness and appreciate my efforts to please you. You appreciate my generosity to yourself and my generosity toward others.

I love you,

Isaac

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Girl Drama

I miss you, but I’m trying not to care anymore.

This is the story of what happened between me and girls this past school year.
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So, in the beginning of the school year I had a thing with a sophomore. I went to aloha dance and homecoming with her and I sorta liked her. But she didn't really like me and was sorta leading me on I guess so after Halloween she just started ignoring me and shortly after, she got back together with her ex.

A few weeks passed and I met another girl in my science class (I'm going to call her girl 1) and I started talking with her. So I started walking her to class, buying her lunch, and I went to winterball with her. And I made her a sick ass Christmas gift :D But after winter break, she started ignoring me and started walking to class with a different guy so I was like wtf? And I never had the chance to hang out with her because she was either busy or her parents would not let her so I was like whatever so I started chatting with one of her friends (girl 2) and we decided to go watch Avatar together. (Which I mean is sort of messed up because they are like close friends)

So Girl 2 and I went to the movies and I did somethings I shouldn't have done. That was really my bad. And then I heard that girl 1 was mad at me so I assumed it was because I hung out with her friend. So I wrote them letters... Girl 1's letter was basically an apology for anything I've ever done to hurt her and Girl 2's letter was an apology for what I did to her which I shouldn't have done. To make it even more complicated, girl 1 was not mad at me for going to the movies with her friend. She was mad because there was a rumor going around that I had sex with her. So I was like WTF!?! However, I found out what happened (Apparently one day before wrestling practice someone asked me how me and Girl 1 was and I was like "we had sex" "JK JK JK" But this other guy overheard and didn't know about the JK JK JK so he told her) The good thing though is that I cleared it up with girl 1 and the reason why we stopped talking is because during winter break, she went to a church retreat and met another guy. Girl 2 also accepted my apology and we decided to "start over" and everything ended real well.

I started talking to girl 2 more and more and we started hanging out a lot. She came over for the superbowl, and she would come over to my house and we would watch movies and stuff. So I decided to ask her to Jr. Prom. She really likes goldfish so I found out what her favorite flavors were and I went early in the morning, shimmed her locker, moved all her stuff to an empty locker next to hers and filled it up with goldfish. I was planning to put so much goldfish would spill out, but I ran out :( Anyways, I filled her locker with goldfish and left a note that read "If fishes were wishes and you had 3, would 1 of them be to go to jr. prom with me?" And then I gave her flowers.

But then the happiness was short lived because, about one week before prom she started ignoring me. I sort of got the feeling that she didn't like me anymore so I IM'ed her saying "You probably don't like me anymore so I just wanna clear things up. Whats going on?" She didn't want to talk about it over AIM so the next day (day before prom) she told me that she doesn't feel the same toward me anymore and that things have changed. She told me that we should just stay friends and go to prom as friends. So at prom, it was extremely awkward, but I guess we still had a pretty good time. After prom night, we stopped talking and that lasted for about two weeks when she IM'ed me and we started talking again. (This was about 2 weeks ago) She told me about how her I-Pod had old music and she needs new music so we made plans. She was supposed to come over to my house and I would help her with her I-Pod. So I got mixed feelings and I did not know whether or not she still liked me. But then she flaked so this never happened anyways. Then around this time, I learn that she got asked about by another guy so I was like omg, but them breaking up made me feel a little better which is kinda messed up but...... :\

Then, this past week, I'm not really sure what happened, but I think somebody texted Sam and told him that Crystal was breaking up with him and that he should get back with Girl 2 (they had a thing before me) so according to what I know, Sam started yelling at girl 2 and she started to cry. But, I think I'm just really jealous and being overly protective of her though.

It's sad how I still like her, but she doesn't like me anymore. All my friends tell me shes not worth it and I should move on and that there are "plenty of fishes in the sea". I try to get over her, but whenever I'm alone, I just think of her. It's never taken me this long to get over somebody. One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else :(

Thats all. This is the story of my life.

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Lifes Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures

They say the best things in life are free. Life is filled with simple pleasures, the little satisfying effects you never really anticipate, but always take great pleasure in. They are the gifts of life that we each celebrate in our own unique way.

Here are 30 of the most satisfying simple pleasures life has to offer:

1. Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – As the rain beats lightly against the window, you nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like a sanctuary. There is no place you would rather be.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – You reach into your pocket and find a $20 bill from the last time you wore these jeans. You aren’t rich, but you are richer than you were a second earlier.
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Yellow Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the yellow light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.

I love her but I'm just too shy.

"The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in."

10th grade:

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade:

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year:

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go. Well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.


Graduation Day:

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later:

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral:

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

Love. By: Jaeson Ma

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A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the 4 pups, and set about nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard.
As he was driving the last nail into the post, he felt tug on his overalls.
He looked down into the eyes of a little boy.

"Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies."

"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat of the back of his neck, "these puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money."

The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket,
he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've
got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?"

"Sure," said the farmer. And with that he let out a whistle. "Here Dolly!" he called.


Out from the doghouse and down ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur.
The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight.

As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed
something else stirring inside the doghouse.

Slowly another little ball appeared, this one noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a awkward manner, the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up....

"I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt.

The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would."

With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers. In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself to a specially made shoe. Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need someone who understands."

With tears in his eyes, the farmer reached down and picked up the little pup. Holding it carefully he handed it to the little boy.

"How much?" asked the little boy.

"No charge," answered the farmer, "There's no charge for love."

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